Hello Everyone,

My soul has been journeying with Vennus in the Underworld, and since the Venus cazimi – the last time I shared anything or really engaged with our tribe – I've sort of been locked in a retreat that required a state of fully surrendered receptivity. Venus is on my IC, and she is the only planet in my natal Aries, and at 2 degrees was therefore conjunct the cazimi and Venus star point in my 4th house of home, roots and ancestry, She is also directly opposite (within one degree) my natal Chiron in Libra (in my 10th house), which she, of course, rules. I've completed 10 cycles with her in this incarnation, and as her new cycle begins, my journey with her continues. She has clarified many things since the cazimi, which I'll share in later posts; but it it seems it was necessary for me to be far more aware of what might be called 'the back story' before I could fulfil the promise of my soul. And so that is the story I'm guided to share with you.

It's a story that's coming from a soul perspective to show how the soul, at pivotal points in an incarnation and/or in the human story, may choose to design an extended plan of themed experience that spans incarnations across timelines, criss-crossing or overlapping those timelines by interweaving the incarnations through them, thus creating resonance that triggers an alignment of experiences at the points where they cross, which serves to maintain the power of the soul's intent through remembrances. This story also gives an example of the nature of unpolarised duality, in which each apparent opposite is contained within the other. It spans 3 incarnations in close relationship with Venus, in service to the Divine Mother.

Within time, the first incarnation was in Atlantis, which I shared in QPH but will briefly recap for those who don't know it. Daisy – the name I use because I only got the image of that flower every time I asked for her name – lived by the sea in an outlying community of families that included seers, magicians, healers and shaanams, who knew of the dreadful downfall that was to come. There were many such communities, communicating with each other telepathically,and staying far away from the dark density of the cities. Concerned that future humans would no longer know their true nature, these communities decided to re-birth pre-pubescent girls and keep their lives balanced and in close harmony with the Earth Mother while seeding them with memories of the essential, harmonising qualities of humanity, in the hope that those seeds would carry into the future. Daisy and many other young girls in other such communities had their minds wiped and were taken deep underground through systems of caves, where they stayed alone for some considerable time – I don't know how long. When Daisy was carried out and placed on a rocky ledge inside the mouth of the above-ground cave so that her eyes could slowly adjust to the light, she had no idea she was human and as her eyes found focus, she imprinted on the ocean, transfixed by the sun sparkling on the waves. Because of this, when she was 15, she was brought to Mary Magdalene in the 4th dimension and began an intitiation into The Path of the Mother. Water, known in Atlantis – or at least in the outlying communities – as the Heart of the Divine, is one of the themes in these 3 incarnations. Another theme is seed memories – living and planting certain essential aspects of natural human life. At 21, her work done, Daisy was called by her soul and walked into the ocean, ending her human life. This wasn't seen as a tragedy by the community. They stood silently on the beach, holding blazing torches aloft, honouring her call to return to the Mother.

The next incarnation I re-membered only briefly. She was a priestess in Avalon, who was shunned by her sisters because she chose not to engage in the forms of self-aggrandising magic being practised in some of the mystery schools, in which her warnings about where that magic could lead fell on deaf ears. Her name was Vivianne and I only experienced her beside one particular lake that she favoured, with its profusion of bullrushes which she loved. There, she often communed with Water when an inexplicable sorrow ran deep in her, and she received many visions. At age 35 she knew she had done all she could do and walked into the lake, completely at peace with herself, and ended her physical life, as Daisy had. The heme of Death is strong in these incarnations, from the perspective of one's relationship with Death, which is a very crucial part of Life. Humanity, being very different in many respects in some of the timelines of antiquity, had a deep knowledge of Death, largely lost to modern Western society.

All this I had re-membered, but then, with Divine timing, 5 days after the cazimi, on the day Venus moved into Pisces and, the next day, was conjunct Neptune, Leslie read my Antares Code for me. It was a priceless and unique experience. Leslie is a very skilled and gifted reader … so intuitive.

Enter the Dragon! The first star on my code, right there on my AC, is Bungula, the star taken over by the fallen Dragons. When Leslie asked me a question about the Atlantis experience, I was briefly aware at the time that my answer was a little hesitant, which surprised me. Then, when I watched myself answer on the recorded video, the words that dropped into my mind were, 'she (meaning me, I thought) knows something she doesn't know she knows.' All I could do was hold space for whatever may surface. Some hours later, the words repeating in my head were, 'screen memories'. I asked were they mine or Daisy's and the answer was, theywere Daisy's. Horrific ritualistic abuse of women and girls was rife by the latter stages of Atlantis and Daisy had been a victim, subsequently rescued from a 'holding station', along with many others, and placed in the care of the community I re-membered. The other rescued girls were likewise cared for in other such communities. In considering a healing process for these girls, the communities decided on mibd-wipe and re-birth to erase the memories they carried and mitigate the damage done to them; following that, they would provide them with a 'history' in a family in the community, which is all they would know of themselves. The memory seeding for the future of humanity dove-tailed with that, giving the girls a natural sense of belonging, value and purpose, and most of all love.

There was, in all likelihood, probably more than one previous incarnations in some sector of Atlantean society that routinely practised the ritual abuse of females, but I have no remembrances of that. However, I began to feel the remorse of my inner dragon, and his longing to make amends. To that end, he chose or requested a female incarnation of experiencing the kind of suffering he had caused; it was the first of many such incarnations in his desire to fully understand what he had done and how to find redemption. As all this came to me, the feeling of his profound remorse grew stronger and with it, his great love, pouring through a heart that had broken many, many times on its long way back to the Divine. It was impossible for me not to love and welcome him.

I wrote to Leslie and told her about the screen memories and what I had recovered from behind them. She then told me of the gathering – a movement of sisters –through the Stellar Nations group in Hungary and Slovakia, held on the Spring Equinox (5 days before my reading) to clear all the horrific historic co-opting of females. About 130 sisters had experienced this screen, seen the abuse behind it, particularly in Atlantis, and told their stories as part of their healing. At the time Leslie wrote (a week after the equinox, 2 days after the reading) there was to be a second gathering because so many people – mostly women – were still healing the traumas hidden behind screens for thousands of years and now surfacing. I was deeply afected by this because as I attuned with my sisters, I was reuniting with all the young girls I had felt in Daisy's awareness in Atlantis, and there was the coming togther of sorrow and joy in boundless love.

The union of Sorrow and Joy is exquisitely Feninine; it is the heart being held in the embrace of the Divine Mother.

Easter blessings to you all 💕