Beautiful Tribe,

This morning I had the experience of a "click" - those magical moments when the pieces come together and a larger picture is seen.

For me, to be personal about this: In this wavespell, my intention to be quieter, to listen more in presence, I noticed the strong drive to get that "click" experience, those times of great insight or magic (White Wizard is waving...). Even in the Redwoods, drawn to walk off the path and be with a tree, there was silence. A lot of silence and I simply listened and loved.

I noticed my mind wanting more, more connection, more magic. I saw this as pushing it away, as that when I have thoughts I should be experiencing something differently than I am, I miss the magic that is there. And oh, was there such magic, silence, connection, Love, gratitude present in me in the Redwoods and Ferns that ever live inside of me too!

I've also been eating a lot. A lot!! Food/sleepiness has been a lesson I haven't completed yet, as deep as I've dived into it inside myself and outside. So I put out the call for support, and had the thought of working with a therapist to dive even deeper, see more.

I also had a dream a couple of nights ago that I simply woke from with the thought: when you join a group or community, don't offer your service until you understand more the group, the energy, what they're up to and how you fit in.

In this search for a therapist, yesterday I came upon someone who started a collective just 1.5 miles from my house. I'd also been "searching" for more community here in Eugene, which I let go of. It all clicked when I looked at this collective, so much resonance. My mind went to...ooh, maybe they'd like to add in dreamwork (while I've done dream teacher trainings, I'm about to begin another one this month, as I'd love to do dreamwork and there seems to be no groups here in Eugene). Then I flashed to the dream I had that told me....wait, slow down, get to know this group before you speak of your own desire of service within it, or how you fit in.

In all this, and more I didn't share, I realize even more deeply....

I need to truly honor, trust, and surrender to my way, my service, my timing. This wavespell was that intention, to slow down, to listen more, to do what there is to do in each moment, and to get into agreement with each moment.

For me, I have an ebb and flow of insight, inspiration, energy. There are many hours and days of emptiness, of low energy, of quiet. These are the times I stress, or feel "depressed", or anxious. All this is simply my own resistance to quiet, to empty...to "mundane".

On this Yellow Spectral Seed day we are asked "What do I need to let go in order to be truly liberated?"

Inside us are the seeds of all we dream and desire, my deep longing to live a life in even more service to all beings shining the call to Light, Truth, New Earth. Today is asking us to please see that we are the fertile ground, that if we can just relax into knowing this, let ourselves just be exactly as we are in each moment, rush nothing, all the resources, inspiration, people, all those synchronicities will come in - when it's time and always in surprising ways.

My life has always gone this way, yet it is the quiet, the empty, that challenges me. And that's okay! What is there to rush toward?

As these times arise inside, I notice both the desire to fill up (with food, shopping, trainings) and at the same time have the desire for "minimalism", wanting to empty more of my physical possessions, simplify...

I do know that being in this together, in this tribe, in community, with loved ones, in connection, is paramount to me.

The Tao Te Ching pops into my mind...

From 3: "Practice not-doing, And everything will fall into place."

37: The Tao never does anything,

Yet through it all things are done.

If powerful men and women

Could venter themselves in it,

The whole world would be transformed

By itself, in its natural rhythms.

People would be content

With their simple, everyday lives,

In harmony, and free of desire.

When there is no desire,

All things are at peace.